You feel a lot when you get slapped. The obvious is the physical pain. The immediate stinging on the region you were hit. When Tom slapped me he broke my nose. Along with the physical pain is the emotional pain. Being slapped by someone you care about causes deep emotional repercussions. Imagine slapping someone for just saying a name. All I said was “Daisy” to Tom and he got so upset he let his emotions take control and Tom decided to hit me. Sure we were both drunk, and the night is still a little hazy, but I still had the right to say her name. When Tom is with me, I want his complete attention. He is not allow to think of his little wife that he left at home. If he even cared about her so much, he wouldn’t be cheating on her with me. I deserve Tom’s love. I said her name to make Tom angry and to see how far I could push his buttons. I think I also said her name because I was angry because she was still such a major part of his life. When Tom slapped me, I felt betrayed and disappointed. I could not believe someone I thought I loved would slap me and injure me to the point of a broken nose. I thought Tom would have been different, like a true gentleman, but I guess I was wrong. Something in me still wants to be with Tom. It must be my internal need to live a life of luxury that I can only get through being with Tom that won’t let me leave Tom’s life. I guess I will just have to emotionally distance myself from Tom knowing now that he would never leave his precious Daisy.
I am soaring when I am with Tom. Especially when he buys me things. When Tom bought me a dog from the street urchin, I was definitely been the happiest I have ever been. Even though the pooch was not a police dog like I requested,she sure was cute. I didn’t even have a need for a dog. I simply wanted the dog because I saw the man holding them and I decided on a whim that a dog would be great for the apartment. Knowing that when I am with Tom, he can buy me anything at anytime. This makes me so ecstatic! The best part is that Tom is actually willing to buy me anything that I want! He could have bought me 10 puppies if I had wanted! I love Tom because he spends his money on me. I am overjoyed when I am with him. How can one man be so handsome and rich? I must have found the whole package deal that lucky day on the bus. I feel like my best self when I am with Tom Buchanan.
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