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Rule No. 5: Never apologize for loving yourself.

Why do I decide to leave for New York and constantly lie to my husband? Well, first of all, I have said this before, but my husband is absolutely clueless. He must really think I love visiting my sister. Maybe I sneak around so much because my clueless husband makes it too easy. But, I do all of my sneaking away to be with Tom  Buchanan. Yes, we are both cheating on our spouses but at least we are happy and having a good time. I cheat because I think I made a mistake when I decided to marry George Wilson. I should have waited for someone more worthy of me, someone with status like Tom. I should not have married below me. Marrying below me was my biggest mistake in life. To make up for marrying below me I try to be with Tom more. Being with Tom gives me the taste of what life could have been. Having Tom in my life is like a dream come true. Although, I do mainly use Tom for his money and his status to boost my own happiness. I don’t think this makes me a gold digger. I am just a girl who made a wrong choice. To make up for my wrong choice, sure, I have made a few more wrong choices, but in the name of emotional self- preservation, I am content. I do what I do to make myself happy, nobody else.

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